Hi! i'm Chrissy. Recovering from anorexia. Trying to fight through each day and actually win. I love to dance and run and i am very passionate about medicine and helping people. Ask questions if you want!
  • Happy monday

    Could barely drag myself out of bed this morning. The pas tfew days i’ve been doing really well with eating. I’m eating when i’m hungry and honoring what i want to eat. Its led me to eat more ice cream then i feel comfortable with, but i love ice cream, so i’m trying to get over it. I meet with my nutritionist tomorrow and i’m super nervous because i feel like this past week i’ve eaten soooo much more then normal and i’m afraid i’m weight will be a lot higher. I didn’t really look at my meal plan this week and just ate what i wanted when i wanted. I didn’t over exercise (i barely exercised at all since i’ve been feeling so sick for so long) and thats making me feel SUPER guilty. Theres a lot of anxiety and fear going on in my mind right now. I feel very unsettled and somewhat unsafe a lot of the time and its making it hard for me to actually enjoy my days. I wake up in the morning and just want to sleep throughout the whole day. Things are getting a little more difficult and i’m getting a bit more depressed. I can’t tell if its just because i’ve been feeling so sick for over a month and its wearing me down, or if i’m falling back into depression. Maybe a little bit of both. Regardless, i dragged myself out of bed and changed, did my hair, and now i’m enjoying an english muffin with come cashew butter and a giant cup of coffee (with gingerbread creamer! so good. you have to try it) 

    i hope you all have a good day!

  • sterility:

    i feel like i am not here anymore
    2014

    (via artyogapiano94)

  • by “Alexandra” Tilton, NH (Teen Ink: November 2013 Issue)

    (Source: ughpasta, via theblogthatsavedtheworld)

  • "

    Depression does not always mean
    Beautiful girls shattering at the wrists
    A glorified, heroic battle for your sanity
    Or mothers that never got the chance to say good-bye

    Sometimes depression means
    Not getting out of bed for three days
    Because your feet refuse to believe
    That they will not shatter upon impact with the floor

    Sometimes depression means
    That summoning the willpower
    To go downstairs and do the laundry
    Is the most impressive thing you accomplish that week

    Sometimes depression means
    Lying on the floor staring at the ceiling for hours
    Because you cannot convince your body
    That it is capable of movement

    Sometimes depression means
    Not being able to write for weeks
    Because the only words you have to offer the world
    Are trapped and drowning and I swear to God I’m trying

    Sometimes depression means
    That every single bone in your body aches
    But you have to keep going through the motions
    Because you are not allowed to call in to work depressed

    Sometimes depression means
    Ignoring every phone call for an entire month
    Because yes, they have the right number
    But you’re not the person they’re looking for, not anymore

    "
  • tru2002:

    Put a letter from A-Z in my ask and I’ll tell you 1 thing I love which starts with that letter.

    (via soft-lava)

  • I’ve been sick for over a month now. I keep getting random infections that won’t go away. Its been over a month of sinus infections, throat infections, and other crap. My dr is running blood work. I”m just so tired of feeling so crappy. ughhh. anyone have any ideas? 

  • My 18 year old brother, when i was freaking out about my recovery weight gain.  (via thephilyptian)

    (via artyogapiano94)

  • "It’s not a big deal that you gained weight. Honestly, in the big picture, who cares? Did you live life the way you wanted to? Did you have fun? Did you find people you love? Did you learn lots of interesting things? That’s probably what you’re gonna care about when you’re at your death bed, not about the fact that you “gained weight” when you were 21."
  • Ask questions? Im bored and getting into a bad mind set and need distractions. I tried to do an update but i can’t put to words whats in my mind lately

  • I am at a breaking point. I feel myself loosing hope and feeling helpless. I feel stuck and alone and i am terrified. I go through each day with a huge smile and a laugh but i feel dead and broken. I can’t bare to look at myself when i pass a mirror. i feel defeated. I don’t know what to do anymore. Nights are the worst. I over think and panic. I lay here and stress and panic about things that i have no control over. 

    I’m scared. I feel so alone

  • plainwhiteskies:

    plainwhiteskies:

    True/False game. Make an assumption about me in my ask and I’ll tell you if its true or false. Go.

    !!!!

    (via thisisloveovertaking)

  • For the last 3 weeks I have been continually sick an in pain. I had a sinus infection and then my wisdom tooth got infected and then I got all 4 wisdom teeth removed an I was finally starting to feel better but now my throat has been killing since yesterday and I think I have strep and I don’t understand why I have been feeling so shitty for so long. I can’t miss any more work and I am in so much pain right now

  • O my gosh my anxiety is horrible right now. Like its crippling. I want to crawl out of my skin or something because i cannot deal with how i’m feeling right now. I am so scared and anxious and on edge and i don’t know what to do or how many more nights i can take feeing like this

  • unpopular opinion?

    i tried a quest bar for the first time today and i’m really not a fan

  • good bye wisdom teeth, hello pain